When the call finally came I was so excited I almost jumped out of my skin. I screamed and cried and called my sisters. We packed a bag with diapers and formula, arranged an open-ended play date for our soon-to-be Big Sister, and loaded fresh batteries in the camera. We looked for the last time at the empty crib and thanked God. And just before we walked out the door the phone rang again.
The birth mother changed her mind. She's decided to parent by herself... or her mother is going to raise the baby... or the birth father decided not to terminate his rights, or... I wasn't even really listening. It doesn't matter, because it’s not our baby. Again.
I almost called our adoption agency and told them to take our names off the list. I was done. I told my husband that if a birth mother changes her mind and decides to parent, then by all means, she should do so. I will keep her and the baby in my prayers. But no way am I going to go through that again. But we did. And we will again. Because our second child will be ready for us when we least expect it, just like our first was.
And look how well that turned out!
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2 comments:
So close, yet so far away.
I know exactly how you feel because we have just experienced this ourselves (for the third time) since our journey began.
I had similar thoughts to yours about just stopping the whole journey but of course, we will continue on our journey as well because we still have faith that this will happen.
Thanks for calling the other night. Your support was invaluable.
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