Thursday, March 15, 2018
Should APs be there for the birth?
I think not. Ever.
No woman can predict 100% how she will feel about her child once it's no longer part of her body, when she can gaze and marvel and bond in a completely different way.
Every woman should have the privacy and opportunity to reconsider. To change her mind; or not. To weep with joy at the first true understanding of what it means to be a mother. To realize that this is what she wants after all, and that she is enough and that she will find a way to make it work.
Or to grieve a separation she believes she must make and will make and will live with for the rest of her life. To kiss the perfect lips, the feathery brows, the everything everywhere every inch while she can. To memorize the face that she may never see again, that will never look the same again.
Our son's first mom asked me to be in the delivery room with her. She went into labor earlier than expected, and by the time I got there she was already pushing. Her father kept urging me to go in, but I couldn't. A nurse offered to escort me in, but I couldn't.
I pressed my forehead and palms to the door and listened. I heard. I heard her bring him into the world. I heard his first cry.
I will always have that, and it is more than enough. It's more than she has of him, and she was his mom before I was.
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Sally Bacchetta - Freelance Writer
The Adoptive Parent